why do i have to leave my minimum wage job feeling so humiliated all the time? it’s not the work itself, it’s not the wages—i took this extra job because a) i need to pay as much of my tuition as i can by myself and b) i wanted to experience this, to understand what working long, hard hours for low wages is like. but i’ve realized, it feels beyond horrible to be talked down to all the time. and to be yelled at. and to be questioned, “is this your first job??” (um. no, not quite.) i don’t allow myself to show this, but i feel hurt easily. and even though i try to force myself to stay humble and forgiving, he still makes my eyes burn with embarrassment and anger when he picks on me. none of the other employees are given the same treatment (and i’m talking about our secondary manager, who is just 3 years older than me), and we are all pretty much the same age. i’m actually one of the oldest employees. and i’d say that i’m probably one of the more hardworking ones too.
i know this is not something i need to care about—i just need to put up with it and remind myself that i’m not as dimwitted or incompetent as my manager or my coworkers would like to think. or maybe i am, but i can’t get hung up over it. i’ll just keep hiding behind the brim of my cap, which i often forget doesn’t actually hide my entire face.
i guess this is part of the experience. but it fucking sucks.